The Lord gave me confirmation on why I am writing about all this mess. Every time I write about Bud I feel a certain type of way. Why do I keep harping on this topic Lord? I am healing from this, I have received deliverance of this but I keep going back to it? Why?.. He yelled at my face.. Because you won’t say what … Continue reading The Diary of an Abuse Survivor – Part three
This is part two of Tis the Season. I’m not going to do a huge introduction of the horror story I’m going to share. I’m just going straight into it.. There were extreme measures that Bud did to make sure to keep me in his possession. When I started to become immune to his ways, he had to step up his game a little bit. … Continue reading The Diary of a Christian woman: Life with Bud!- Part two
The Holidays was always my favorite time of year. Thanksgiving was my favorite and the icing on the cake was that it ended with Christmas. I loved the feeling Christmas would bring and I loved waking up Christmas morning to watch my kids open presents. The decorating, the cooking, just everything about it made me happy. My mom always made sure that we had a … Continue reading The diary of a Christian woman: Tis the season – Part one
Today.. today is all about me, lol.. It’s always about me right? Well yes and no. I typically write what God is doing for me or what may have happened to me or just random stuff that comes to my brain. I don’t think I’ve truly ever told you who I am! Last night as I sat in my prayer closet, the Lord truly showed … Continue reading It’s all about me!
I am so excited as I write this entry. So excited in fact, that I don’t even know where to start. There is so much I want to tell you about what has been going on with Jesus and me!! I can’t reveal it all yet but WOW is it good! Let me start from the beginning, well before the beginning. For quite some time … Continue reading My Night in My Closet With Jesus: Part One!
I would love to start this off by saying this post will be encouraging and uplifting. It probably won’t be. This is going to be more of a feelings dump kind of entry. I know I make jokes about the different personalities, and I wish I was joking. Is it serious enough where I should be medicated..? Probably.. but I use Jesus as my medicine. … Continue reading Diary of a struggling single woman
Once again, you failed at yet another relationship. You should have conformed yourself to your partners needs. Because you were not the woman he needed you to be, he left you. It’s your fault.. The rumors he spreads about you, even though they were not true, everyone now thinks they are. You will be better off just staying at home and never going out again. … Continue reading Dear… Me..
When the Lord told me I had to start feeling me feelings, I’m not going to lie.. I was a tad terrified about that. There is an old dusty filing cabinet in my mind that is cram full and I refuse to clean it out. That cabinet has good memories, okay memories and some are not so good but God kept telling me it was … Continue reading Adventures of the Emotions Wheel: My first memory!
A couple months ago, I found myself on this high so to speak. A high that meant that nothing around me was going wrong. Everything seemed to be falling into place and God just continued to bless me in ways that were blowing my mind. At the same time I found myself on this high, the Lord reminded me that it wasn’t always going to … Continue reading Dear Diary, I am not a washed up has been!
Here pretty soon, I will be at my one year mark since I’ve become single. In this past year I’ve learned a lot about myself and I’ve learned how to appreciate being single. I’m not going to lie when I tell you that it’s hard. I don’t want to be by myself anymore and I’m tired of doing life on my own. The biggest reason … Continue reading Dear Diary, I’m struggling today
I usually don’t tell other people’s stories because it’s not my story to tell. But I want to share something with you all about a friend of mine. The only reason why I am sharing this is to show you an outsiders perspective on how unfair life is sometimes but show you the glory of God in it all. I have a friend and I’m … Continue reading The Diary of Another Christian Woman: Binsa!
A lot has happened over the past few weeks, and some things I can’t seem to wrap my brain around yet. But the Lord dropped in my mind today that I needed to share something with you all. I’m not sure what that is yet so I am completely winging this entire thing. I was talking earlier with a friend of mine about testimony. What … Continue reading Chronicles of a really tired woman!